.:: tattoo meanings ::.
Tattoos I'm sure I'm going to get:
#1: Kenji symbol for "good" on my left inside wrist
#2: Kenji symbol for "evil" on my right inside wrist
I think I'll get the "good" and "evil" ones because it'll fit will with my angel/devil theme (see #6). The Good symbolizes in what I know my mother would want me to do and my coinsience and the Evil in which I have become.
#3: a black and red Slayer logo on my upper right arm
Slayer are gods. 'Nuff said.
#4: the Latin saying from Otep's site: "Disce quasi semper victurus; vive quasi cras moriturus." Translated it's: "Learn as if you were going to live forever; live as if you were going to die tomorrow." I want to get that done in fancy lettering, similar to Tairrie B's text on her stomach, which says "La Dolce Vita" [which means "The Sweet Life" in Italian.]
I think this tattoo will be very open-ended because it relates to Otep but also related to life in general.
#5:[above the Slayer logo] on my upper right arm, have a devil/evil angel
Represents the Evil angel of my conscious.
#6: on my upper left arm have the good angel
Represents the Good angel of my conscious.
#7: flaming wings with "Angel of Death" in Old English text under it on my entire back or just on shoulder blades
"Angel of Death" by Slayer is my favorite song by them. It's about WWII "doctor", Joseph Mengele...
This tattoo would also be a tribute to history in general. I love history because I am very curious of how we got to this point and time. Everything in history has had a cause and effect. World War II has been unmatched in history since it occurred. So generally, I would say that this tattoo would symbolize my love for World History, my strong interest in the events of the Holocaust, all meanwhile also a tribute Slayer.
Also, on a lighter side, I've always loved angels and for the past however many years now, I've had quite an obession with morbid things.
#8: a fire band on the upper portion of my arms
I love fire. Hehe. That is all.
#9: something dedicated to Miss B (can't think of what though), maybe I'll be as obsessed enough to actually get a portait of her
The personal meaning for My Ruin is basically the same as the one for Otep. While Otep had been abused and raped by her father, Tairrie B’s mother abused her and her father abandoned her. Tiarrie B taught me through her lyrics that no matter what life throws at you, you just have to look to tomorrow and appreciate that that is when you have another day full of new opportunities to take and make your own. When a window of opportunity opens, you must always take it; otherwise, you will regret it later.
In one of my favorite My Ruin songs (“Sycophant”), Tairrie B says: “... all you do is take/steal and imitate/you are what you create/you’re fake...” In this world of posers, ignorance, stupidity, and hypocrites, you have to be your own person and never copy what anyone else is doing. After all, gene-wise our entire DNA is different; so is our blood and our fingerprints. As a result, simply we are all alike, but we must individualize ourselves in order to receive any kind of respect. Someone who copies what someone else is doing, whether it is how they dress or how they talk, is truly an insecure and desperate person who is in need of attention. In contrast, someone who individualizes his or herself is considered very respected by others and shows that they are able to do either own thing or not follow the crowd.
#10: a plain black star on the back of my neck
Stars have always amazed me. To me, stars symbolize trying hard until you accomplished the task. They remind me of my father saying something in Polish, basically translated to: I should overcome my fears and not be scared. The stars would then symbolize each and every time I listened to my father to try something new and feel accomplished or to not give into my fears at the time.
I have also had quite an interest in astrology, and with stars in particular. The whole concept of researching, believing, and knowing there are things out in the universe other than our planet, our sun, and our moon amaze me to the fullest extent. When we go on with our daily lives, we never really think of how the world is turning (literally) and what's going on outside this little home sweet home in which we call Earth.
Tattoos that I'm not sure I'm going to get:
#11: Jane from Daria [not sure where]
#12: Kittie logo [small of my back]
Kittie has been my anger outlet for the past couple years. Morgan Lander inspired me to pick up an electric guitar and learn how to play her songs. Playing their music is my anger management. It saves me from the world and it saves me from myself. (By "save me from myself", I mean that I would get angry enough before the band to mutilate myself and think that I was exceedingly sadistic and masochistic in doing so.)
#13: Buffy the Vampire Slayer's character Faith [Eliza Dushku]'s tribal tattoo
The character of Faith (played by Eliza Dushku on Buffy the Vampire Slayer) proved to me that no matter how much I do not like to open up to people at times and how much I try and have that tough “bad girl ‘don’t mess with me’” attitude, it always fails at one time or another. The only person who knows that this “evil bad ass attitude” is just a mask for “the real me” is my older sister, Olga. She sees right through me as if I was entirely made up of transparent glass. By having this tattoo done, I will finally prove to myself that underneath it all, whether I like it or not, I have always been a happy, preppy, and kind girl. The type of girl that my mother always wanted me to be... or at least the girl that I used to be before she passed. Now that I have sabotaged everything that she believed in, getting the tattoo is my way to apologize to her and always remember that she wanted the best for me. So basically, getting the tribal tattoo done would be a secret mark of respect (a kind of “in memory of”) for my mother.